Hiatus For The Moment.

I've been very busy lately. I might be free on 2 December. I'll post about 27th. One hell of a day! Super gerek!

Don't Leave

Something is holding me back. I feel different, weird now. Should I worry about us? Should I worry about the future? I still need you.

We've gone through a lot. We had fights but still we're one, still strong. I had watched you sleep, cry, laugh, smile. I love the way you looked at me in the eyes, smiling deeply inside, telling me those 3 words. Everything about you is perfect to me. I wouldn't ask for more. All I'd ask is your love and trust. I had given you my heart, my trust. Don't care about jealousy, its normal. It will soon fade away. But the end of everyday, I never fail to say that I love you more, more than anything else in this world.

I didn't want to have another relationship until you came to my life. I'm showing others that I do cherish the love you gave me. I'm not the old me. This is new, everything is new. I don't want the same thing to happen to me once again. My heart is healed by you. Take care of it. I love you.

5 more days. :)

This Has To Stop

If you could notice, I'm getting skinnier every single day. I didn't notice anything at all until yesterday's meet up at Clementi. Some say I'm getting skinnier. I couldn't get a grip of it, kept taking it. I have to eat more and stop this bad habit. I don't mind of how hard it will get, I'm still going to stop.

I miss you. I miss your calls. I miss your text. I miss you too much. ):

The Only Hope Now

You and me made up an equation. No matter how bad it is, my love will never change.

Just a fraction of your love fills the air

And I fall in love with you all over again

You're the light that faced the sun in my world

I'd face a thousand years of pain for my girl

Out of the things in life that I could fear,

The only thing that would hurt me is if you weren't here

I don't want to go back

To just being one half of the equation

You understand what i'm saying?

Girl without you i'm lost

Can't face this focus at heart

Between me and love

You're the common denominator

You're the common denominator

Before your love was low

Now you're just my height

You changed the game that would put my card to this side

A broken heart rise up to say

Love is a lie

You and I would stand to be multiplied

Out of the things in life that I could fear,

The only thing that would hurt me

Is if you weren't here

I don't want to go back
To just being one half of the equation

You understand what i'm saying?

Girl without you i'm lost

Can't face this focus at heart

Between me and love

You're the common denominator

You're the common denominator

I can't imagine life without your touch

Every kiss that you give can fill me up
And every all heartaching

Jealous females hate it

I'mma hold it down for you

(Common Denominator - Justin Bieber)

Stop. Think.

I came to think that what I've done is wrong. I'm getting more and more violent. Some had noticed it. I regret what I've done and I won't be leading this life with danger and humiliation. I never knew that things could get worst if I continue this. Think, if I were to continue this, my family would be involved too. I come from a good family. Parents are open to friends who I have. They would be ashame if they got to know this.

I have to think before I do or talk. I have to picture the consequences. I have to be in others shoes.

Its hard to get a perfect life where people respect you. I respect others, but I can't seem that they do. Going through the bad way doesn't even change the respect that I'm suppose to get. Maybe I don't have to follow the influences around me to get respect.

Seriously, I'm done with fighting. I'm done leading my life with danger. I'm done leading my life with humiliation. I'm an adult now, no more acting or behaving like a kid.

Perfect Situation

I let love down the drain. Yeah, I did. I suck at relationship. I do. All I did was giving in, giving in. I never told her about my whereabouts. I thought she might not know, so I kept it. I kept it cause I don't want her to get jealous and angry about this, not because I'm cheating on her. I never even want to do those stuffs anymore.

She knew about me meeting someone few days back. She's angry, super angry. After hours of talking, she finally told me the cause of her temper. I apologised to her and told her I will tell her about my whereabouts when I go out without her. Everything when fine, but suddenly changed. Now I'm holding on to the rope. Almost about to fall. But still I'm holding on.

If we were to break, I'm going single. I'm not going to have another relationship even if I hoping for one. But still I'm holding on to you now. Love you.

Them. Us. Crash.

They pissed me off. I'm trying to cool things down but they played with fire. Didn't mama told you not to? Chiko Seven, watch out. Something's swinging. Trust me.

I MISS SKATING! AND NOTHING IS GOING TO HOLD ME TODAY!

I Miss You People, I Swear.

Came down Redhill to meet Anna, my close friend since my retained year. Had a catch up talk about her life and mine, but mostly hers. I miss her. She did change after she got retained. Didn't get close since then. I miss those times. Remember, don't do stupid stuff during your probatation period. If can change yourself. You're life, you're choice. I don't have the right to control you. I miss you Anna!

After meeting Anna, straight when down RC kipas to meet my girl who is alone down there. Gosh, I miss her badly. Didn't get to contact her for 48 hours and it kills me slowly. And finally get to see that pretty face of hers. I gave her many pecks of kisses that could get irritating if I kept doing it. Something tells me that she's not feeling well now. Argh, how to contact her! God, help me. I miss you badly Baby!

When back home and started my online chats. First thing that came popping out at the bottom right side of my screen was Adian. Quickly double-clicked on her and we chatted. Gosh, how long was it since we last talk? Super long I guess? I do miss her irritating text. Haha, jkjk. She told me that some guys in my school talked good stuff about me. I'm shocked, I am. I thought I have a lot of haters. Our conversation was cut short after her dad came checking up on her. Damn. I miss you Adian!

There's more that I do miss. Nurdiana Erniwaty, Nur'Ain, Aisyah, Nadia, Nadheera. Those names not mention, I do miss all of you, but many to be listed. Sorry!